Drive, and Bardstown

Lists of annoyances and petty reviews aren't really worth anyone's time, so here is a list of things that have gone right so far:

Lunch with Curly

Sighting of frolicking lambs!

Sighting of bison (?!)

Cumberland Gap

Prettiness of snow, if it cannot be considered a road trip aid...

Skyfall in HD on an iPad. 

Today, I was determined to have a "really good day" of vacation, then realized determining that fact was pointless. So, if I don't see all I have come here to see, and do all I have come here to Kentucky to do, then, well, it's a wasted vacation no matter how I look at it. I might as well just like the two things I can see and do. 

Hunter could not be a better traveling companion because he euphemizes all my quivering lips and warbling-voiced agitations. This is all epic. 

Also, I think we're sleeping in a renovated jail tonight. 

Tomorrow

I've done the basic packing for a little trip. Back pack. lots of under, lots of socks, some inter-changeable shirts, one pair jeans, one pair sleepy pants.

I'll bring one pair of ostentatious earrings. Probably no pretty shoes or necklace. A first aid kit. Mascara.

It's almost tempting to pack more than one bag. Hunter and I are taking an entire car. We'll have all the room in the world. This affords me one basket of dried goods. It also means I can't plug Dido, my iphone, in. hrm. I've re-structured the music scene lately. Thanks to getting this sweet new Dell lap top, courtesy of IT at The Company, I've had to restructure just about everything. It, for the first time, was not fun.

Anyway, Music. I've found old files from various places and four distinct external hardrives (none held the poetry backlog of Kiddo's juvenile genius). They are all consolidated in an iTunes folder outside The Company server.

Then I bought some Johnny Flynn. Look to the Gelatin Hour for a review at some point.

Kiddo's brain starts to wonder at the proliferation of names dropped in daily life. How separate are we from
A) village life
B) the suburb norm of America circa the last generation

Anyway, Music. Johnny Flynn is blowing my blonde little mind, and I'm super excited -- I just bought blank CDs from the CVS on my corner mid-commute, and can burn some for drive. 

Loss

Perhaps this is conceit, and perhaps it is "a sign," but great men were not often so humble, so defeatist to allow great loss of work to stop them recreating it.

There is, somewhere in the world, a thumb drive or external hard drive that still holds every poem, essay, novel chapter, dialogue, monologue, travelogue and diary entry I have written. It is just not resident under my  super sweet roof.

Except the Bourbon Book, which is still in a simple 10k word dribble on this particular computer. Which is fortunate, because that trip is scheduled to embark this Wednesday. That's four days away. I had better get that freaking structured, and fast!

Fat Tire's Silver Linings

Infuriated at personal shortcomings, Kiddo chugged 22 ounces of Fat Tire and took out enough food three Kiddos to the movies to while away the two hours it would take for her 12 copies of a 91 page board presentation to be comb bound, from the stack of paper so fat it was in an old printer box, and wrapped in a plaid, linen scarf to keep it from wetting in the flash flood warning.

It had taken an hour for them to print, back in the office behind some heavy fake cherry doors--all of which only opened with a badge swipe. Traffic, even at 6:30pm, stood to make me cry at the wheel.

That's when life becomes crucial again. There are no adorable children faces to look at you with hope. There are no teenagers on the line, ready to drop themselves into your enlightened hands. There are no adults thanking you and praising your black president, who shines with the fire of 40 saints.

There is no where to hitch hike without being an underpaid hooker, and no where you can drink beer all day and not feel anything but joy at all the dirt in your heels.

I've been back from Moldova for a year an a half. I haven't talked to any of my Moldovan friends. I love them, and think of them more often than they would believe if I told them.

But I was alone. I was alone and in the world, and doing something more terrifying. The people I'm dependent upon now, are dependent on me. We are living the capitalist dream, together. We are gleaning money from the hands of investors to defend the greatest country currently on earth.  We are a smalll company burgeoning with ambition and desire to do good.

It's not how I wanted to do good, but I've drunk the kool aid of CEO: we are only here to pay mortgages and do good and interesting work.

Because, really, what else is there?

Parking Lot of Mis-Matched Time Cards

Preface

People in Maryland are, in my experience, wimps about weather and driving. Or, at least, they are lazy and eager for an excuse to stay home. Can we really blame them for taking a chance to stay home? No. Or course not. Hunter is in the midst of convincing me to play hooky one day this week himself. Hunter is one of the hardest workers I've ever witnessed. 

Can we blame them for thinking a bit of slush, or, heavens-to-betsy, 1/4 inch of snow is quite enough to keep us all at home for the sake of children's safety? 

um. Well. We can judge them harshly. 

Chapter 1. 

My parking lot at work is probably typical. Exactly 10 more spots than there are workers who can potentially park on a given day to work in out building. They fill up closest to the door first. By 7:15 am the rock star spots are gone. I can only imagine these are held in high regard by those who park there. 

If you troll in around 10 am, you're off in the spots cordoned off for piles of salt meant to save the Winter Wimps. 

Chapter 2. 

I park just beyond the crazy ambitious. I gauge myself to have above average ambition. I will probably end up just above average in money-raking and recognition. I drive in rain, shine, slush, ice, hurricane, crazy beautiful hula-hooping sun, flu, tension head ache, terrible hang-over. 

Chapter 3. 

I work for 11 hours. This is almost impressive. However, my hero, the CEO works for 12. No matter how many things I do, she does more. 

There are, of course, reasons for this. She has been doing this since she was my age, and she's the age of my mother. 

Chapter 4. 

When I finally leave, there is much left undone, and I think "Fuck damn, I'll just have to finish that tomorrow." I put my laptop into its big, padded case. Coil it's power cord up and shove it down the sleeve adjacent. "shit burn, there's that whole project for IT I promised." I pick up a black leather folio full of my drafts and drafts and drafts of my To Do lists. "Yep. All I need's some beer to help me do that!" 

Chapter 5. 

Zipped, tripped down the stairs (four flights), and out five sets of doors. The salt they put down is not even scattered. It's in weird, congealed piles of half-melted white. Sparks of magenta or blue make me remember just how artificial they are. Just before I look up and resent the empty spaces that represent people already at home, I wonder just what idiots dropped slop bowls of fake salt-substance on my ground. My heels grind in the white as the spread of cars come into focus. 

A few of the front-liners are still here (CEO's Subaru included). A fewer number are in the big dumping areas off in the deer-ridden distance. 

The majority are in that no-man's land of average. However, there aren't many. Not even average has much of bell-curve. 

Epilogue. 

I drink three bottles of beer, fold two loads of laundry and eat only one side of fish. I save the other side for Hunter, who doesn't come, and put it in a box to take to work at 6:30 am tomorrow.

M.C. Kiddo

Another faux pas, another day.

It turns out my super sleek system of uploading my old mix CDs onto  iTunes, and then mixing up my stash into sweet playlists and given as presents is one of many things. None of them cool.

To the ultra geeks (see Papagaard's old blog on Macs,or Hunter's articles in The Motley Fool) I am so late nineties. To the True Hipsters, I am a hipster. To the music studios, and very probably my federal government, I am a thief. To outcast friends (many of them either hipsters or True Hipsters) I am just not as good as them.

My mixes are pretty darn neato. While in my cubicle I think Optimistic thoughts, or I think some hard core gospel thoughts about there not being a god. I think them and have no ready way to express myself! I must express myself! It's a work day! I cannot blog! I cannot go and tell my love all the love that wells in my breast! The sturm! The drang! So while I admin away at the unruly world, I sort files and songs.

Files are alphabetical or chronological or by VIP. Songs are by Anais, Homicide, Oaf, Realism, and Sirena Mica. One is by the world as logic shapes it, and one is by how art organically grows it.

When I was in Moldova, I had two whole winters in which to sort my musical library. I could testify to every genre and spelling. I could verify every year of every album and write little blurbs about every band, their being -- Oh! glorious depression it was. I had the world's most organized iTunes library, and a very few other things to do.

With this idea of settling, can I have it all? Can I be productive, not depressed, and have an organized iTunes library?

Maybe if I ever get a TV. 

The Devil's Whiskers

I had a new drink last night. It didn't have bourbon in it, but it was delicious.

It starts, in Lady's head as a perfect Manhattan. Liking the sounds of it (vermouth nerd, all about the bourbon) and always wanting to try new things, and always looking for a way to stay in touch with my beloved Alcoholics, "yes" was the only answer possible.

Lady suggested it first, of course, she is the responsible mother of our merry band. Skinny Dancer starts with a glass, 1792, bitters and pops open a tiny can of grapfruit juice. I have enough faith in my friends that, sure, those ingredients could... could work.

Pho Poet catapults down the stairs to arrest misguided mixing.

Phew.

Nope. Not bourbon. Gin. Use gin.

While this is a bit dissapointing for my sweet life theme just a the moment, it does make more sense with the bitter citrus.

So, mix this:

1 part gin
1 part grapefruit juice
1/2 part dry vermouth
1/2 part sweet vermouth
1/2 part grand marnier
several dashes bitters to taste.

Serve shaken or stirred, neat or on the rocks. I had mine on rocks in a high ball glass with a little stirring straw to get through the ice. It was divine. Smoky with the sweet vermouth, bright with the citrus. Sweet orange and dry vermouth to hold it all together over a floral and tangy base.

It's a great drink to exemplify why I wish, often, that alcoholic drinks were not alcoholic. I could drink something flavored like this all the time, except that Bonbay Sapphire puts me $11 out and I weight 120 pounds... three of these things buts me pretty out of clean mind.

After learning about liquors themselves, I intend to find very good, dry drinks that will not dull my brain.